Fickle Dreams

I dreamt of a girl I could love
We met in a little cafe
It was a McDonalds before
She made it into something unique

We discussed her past boyfriend
A man I knew very well
About his quirks and habits and failings
It was filled with a scornful pity

Then I made the odd compliment
And she leaned in against my shoulder
And before I fully knew what happened
We were lost in each others lips

But then like all good dreams
Time slips away
And we had to go if we were to
Catch our yoga class

So we ran from here to there
Running into every distraction
And by the time we reached the theatre
She was someone else

My Pledge

Time to waste my time
And find out who I am
To risk the fragile heart
In the pursuit of being weathered
I will make this future mine
With every day that passes

Who Knows?

If you told me
That I could have the perfect girl
as a friend and a lover
if only I asked.

On a clear moonlight night,
I would laugh and drink my wine

On a windy summer night,
I would just smile

On a bleak and heavy night,
I would call her for the company

On a stormy winter night,
I would cry alone

I'm as consistent as the weather
A wild and weary soul
I think I'll settle down one day
But even that I do not know.

Dusk to Dreams

I want to live in my dreams

And don't mistake my meaning

I'm happy to be alive

The feeling and motion of living doesn't bother me

I'm not seeking to escape anything

Or run from past experience

But when I go to sleep

My dreams are always an adventure

I'm always taking a step froward

Towards one thing or another

I never seem to stop

And everything is shifting and moving

A never ending chase to new locations

Even if they're average

The light or the colours seem to dazzle me

In ways that I've never found on this side of awareness

I hope death and dreams are the same

And I'll get to live my afterlife in such a way

It would make a perfect ending to a good life

A night full of dreams after a day full of life

A Moment

In those moments
When time seems to slow
Or when it races past
When days seem like an era
Or when a kiss lasts for hours

In those moments
We find our lives
Or we lose them

In those moments
We find our certainty
Or find the vast uncertainty

In those moments
We don't know what's happening
But it's momentous
And we want them to happen all the more.

And

A strange evolution of hair and bone and skin
Where light and time and hardship take hold
Burning and grinding new pathways
Reassembling and redefining bodies
Eating away the innocence and naivety
Forging and hardening the inside and out
A body and a soul together empowered
By burns and cuts and light and sweat

The old is dead and gone
But beneath is great and strong

A Black World and A Glorious Tomorrow.

It's rust in the sunlight

Not shining, but brilliant in its own way

Burnt red and stark orange

Breathing wild creation into dull steel

Time as the instigator of youthful rebellion

Watching the light before dawn

On lawn chairs we found on the roof

Giggles and sleep deprivation

Our only conversation

Somehow more meaningful than our posturing

Looking in the mirror after the longest day

Noticing how much a face can change

All doubt and fear forgotten for a moment

A mix of resignation and accomplishment

Beyond the darkness of quiet lives

These are what give is strength in times of trouble

That we will rust, and be beautiful in our scars

That even at our most weary, we are whole

That all our fears are just nightmares, and we're soon to wake.

Our light is radiant and it shows us the way

I must be Asleep

Sleep is a safe place
It's where desire dies

Sleep is a happy place
Because we forget we want so bad

Sleep is a blessed place
We are free from that which eats us alive

Sleep is a far place
To let go of all this life is so very terrifying

Sleep is a worthy place
To choose the quiet oblivion is the wiser path

Plummet

I'm pretty sure I'm going to fall
I don't know the details
The specifics of my plunge.

But before the day of my death
I think that some great distance I will traverse
Entirely too quickly and vertically

And that's why I walk so lightly on the earth
Not trusting the sturdiness of my step
Because some day, I'll have nothing below my feet

I'm sure it wont hurt
I'm sure I wont die
But this great fall is waiting for me and I don't know when.

Sexual Deviance

Sticks and Stones
Broken Bones
Sadists and Masochism

Fuck, I'm Sore
From Pain Galore
Oh Hurt Me One More Time

Make Me Whine
Say your Mine
As I take the Belt

I'll Wrap you Tight
Might Just Bite
Tell Me That it's Nice

Face is Straight
While We Masturbate
Underneath the Table

Fuck Me Gentle
Fuck Me Hard
Welcome to The Fun Side

Time for an Adventure

I'm starved for words that I don't know
The thrill of discovery is upon me
No one crossed the sea just to get away
The other side of the coin was excitement
The spirit of curiosity growing the chest

I'm a bookworm in a mound of earth
I'm a monster without a fairytale
I'm hungry for something that isn't in my pantry
Time to go shopping
Time to go exploring

The Morticians Daughter

Ice cold room

All full of shiny steel

Two men in dance

Of blood and stitches

Care and cremation

Dead Cosmetics

And in the corner

Wide eyes

Doll in hand

There she sat

The Morticians Daughter

Sweet as a rose

Pale as a lily

With nerves calm and steady

A girl who is never silly

Who knows blood as love

Chemicals as kindness

Blades as servants

Death as a friend

Alive

But not clinging to it

Young

But aged beyond her years

Beautiful

But so very distanced

With a foot inside the grave

And the other in her fathers room

She isn't living and she isn't dead

But she can pretend to be both

Unanimous

Is a life real
If no one acknowledges it?
Last time I checked
A nation wasn't real
Until the UN agreed.

Looks like I'm not alive.
Thanks for letting me know

Hibernation

Hand me a coffee and a smile

As our icy breath mingles in the dawn light

I just need a moment to make sense

While we make plans that we don't want to come true

Can you lend me a shovel and a fond farewell?

As I leave you for dim blue skies and endless silence

I want nothing at all

And I don't know whether to laugh or cry

Young Blood.

I am calm ageless and wise
But my blood disagrees
My blood screams murder
My blood screams sex
My blood screams glory

And I'm just so tired of it
I'm tired of a heart too eager
And a soul too quiet

Hands that seek to reach over
Caress
Love
Embrace

While my mind wants to stay
Be cautious
Be quiet

Be me

Damn this traitorous heart

Damn these feels that aren't mine.

In Places Dying.

In the land of empty trees
Where shadows walk along the wind
And color is only a faint impression

This is where I've gone away

By the calm and shallow seas
Where souls linger on the beach
And old men wonder when they'll leave

This is where I shall stay

On the cold and dusty breeze
Where voices try to meet
And lost echos try to speak

This is where I choose to lay