Wednesday, November 30, 2011

You and Me

Hey

Wanna go for a walk?
I mean
It's nothing major
Just a stroll
You and Me
Just walking

Hey

Wanna go for a swim?
I mean
It's minus 20 out
Thats cool if you don't want to
I was just thinking
It might be fun
You and Me
Just swimming

Hey

Wanna climb a mountain
I mean
It make take a few weeks
But what's a coupla weeks
Between friends
Wouldn't it be cool
You and Me
Just climbing

Hey

Wanna suggest something
that we could do together
I mean
I'm throwing ideas out there
and you're just sitting there
Like seriously
You and Me
Just doing something

Hey

Why you walking out?
Going for a walk
Sweet, lets hit it up
Oh
Gotcha
Solo stroll
No biggie
You and Me
Erm...
Just me

Hey

You gonna come back
Maybe
Sometime
That would be cool
I'd really like that
A lot
Ya
You and Me
together again

Hey

You turned off your answering machine
I take it thats a bad sign
I should stop calling
Actually
I should stop talking
This is getting kinda desperate
But I'm not desperate
per se
Just looking for a little
You and Me
for once

Hey

New text
"Wanna talk?"
....
Win

"Hey"

Transformation on the Island

Upon a twice visited island
Now ripped apart in disarray

A town turned from heavens gate
to the blackest pit of hell

A wandering boy turned from innocent
to the spoiled core of a rotten fruit

A couple so pure they lit the night
turned to a pair of mourning ghosts

An island once a tropical paradise
transformed into a howling rock of loss

Named for the happiness that once flowed
that place quickly lost all illusion

A monster wanders sad and listless
A couple circle each other in vain

A village huddles together for warmth
An island that never sees a morning

But this world and this isle
has never and will never be static

For upon the faces of those once loving souls
Tears flowed like april rain upon the marked ground

And where those pearls of lost love landed
Shards of exquisite crystal grew

They were love in its purest form
Glowing and growing to fight endless night

Those tears of love gone cold
were not the only ones shed upon the island

A beast wandered opposite those lovers
For he could not face them

Even a murderer feels the knife
Even a beast can feel regret

The tears that matted his fur
boiled hotter then pain each victim felt

What came to life from his mourning
as trees of steel and iron

Each one a promise etched into the landscape
A resolve that took root in the very land

And as the wronger and wronged circled the land
They both found hope ahead of them

The lovers found strength in metal leaves
In death they were still alive together

The monster found love in gentle light
A love that did not question his wild ways

So the island changed from paradise to fairytale
With a tragic twist for illustration

The town starved upon the shore
For love and promises cannot feed a family

They fled to sea for their fortunes sake
and left behind a paradise turned rotten

But the island still grew stranger and stranger
for the inhabitants could not leave

Bound together by webs of hate and lust
Yet still in love with hope and dreams

Once upon a twice visited island
All reason sailed away

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Sunset Village on the Island

Upon a twice visited island
Lived a happy couple
and a town filled with happy people
and an island filled with happy plants

And every day
Joy would flow like wine
Content was a way of life
Happiness was undeniable

So the couple,
a songbird and a singer
graced the island with a title
The isle of Happiness

They spread their good grace
From this corner to that
White lilies burst from the ground
A ocean breeze filled the air

Except for one corner
That blemished this good cheer
It was a strange and dark grove
With mist that bleed from it

So the couple
With good grace and naivety
Sent songs spiralling into that place
and left it to spring into tropical joy

But the beast that they awoke
Was sick of happiness
It was a thing of older times
When good and evil didn't rule

The celebrations increased
The wine never stopped
The whole island was alive
Until the first one disappeared

A traveller
Who longed to map the fair place
Was missing for days
Which then became weeks

Then a babe and her mother
Gone for flowers
There was a scream
and then nothing more

Soon followed was the howling
From the hills every night
Echoing out onto the ocean
Filling the once pleasant nights

Mist consumed the isle
Eating away at the loving plants
Growing stark straight pines
and thick scrubs and bristles

The town turned from a party
To the huddled mass of fear
As death became regular
and panic a hanging feeling.

Till one night
Every villager awoke at once
Their dreams invaded by scarlet claws
Digging deep into their hearts

They gathered in the square
and awaited the dawn
But none ever came
None ever would

Forever in the blackest midnight
The people lost sight of everything
That once existed in the light
Howling became the guardian of night

Night Fall on the Island

Upon an island twice visited
Lived a happy couple
and a town filled with happy people
and an island filled with happy plants

I was content to wander
The lone beast
Through the wild
Alone but never lonely

Until the day came
That happy couple
In displays of gross vanity
Proclaimed this place belonged to happiness

I cannot stand to think
That the wilds I've inhabited
Fierce and Savage
are now to be known as happy

And all the people
They rejoice in the light
of endless celebrations
No humble respect to death that roams about

So, I call to the gods above
Let me end this reign of light
Let me teach these blind heretics
Let me hunt

And I hunt I will as I run
Through the woods
Consuming the lost travellers
Ripping the heedless hiker

This tropical paradise quickly changed
In just one night of blood
To a misty isle covered in pines
More accurate to the pain and suffering all around

But the damn couple
The lovers upon the mountain
Living so perfectly
In their far off sanctuary

I ran
I ran on all fours
My bloody form hungering
For the end of such a radiant abomination

My heart stops beating
The door doesn't creak
My claws gently run across
Their loving shapes.

I rip and tear
Until morning dawns
But much to my sick pleasure
It never does

This island paradise
That once was home to songbirds
Poets, writers, artists
Is now plunged into endless and terrifying night

No rest or respite for the happy
No hope of success for the defender
No more happy couple on the mountain
No feeling

Free to be an animal
A lone beast once again
On the saddest day
On a twice visited island

Monday, November 28, 2011

Fucked Up Fable

Jeff fell down into a well
Jeff fell down into a well
Jeff fell down into a well
Jeff fell down into a well

Jeff fell down
Jeff fell down well
Jeff fell down into wells?
Jeff fell down into a well

Why
Why did he
Why did he fall
Why did he fall down a well?

Jeff didn't fell
Jeff didn't fall
Jeff didn't choose to fall
Jeff chose to jump

Jeff jumped down a well
Jeff jumped down
Jeff jumped
Jeff jumped and fell

Why
Why did he
Why did he jump
Why did he jump down a well?

Jeff didn't jumped
Jeff didn't jump
Jeff didn't choose to jump
Jeff chose to fly

Jeff flew down a well
Jeff flew down
Jeff flew
Jeff flew, jumped, and fell

Why
Why did he
Why did he fly
Why did he fly down a well?

Jeff didn't flew
Jeff didn't fly
Jeff didn't chose to fly
Jeff chose nothing.

Jeff isn't he
Jeff is a she
Jeff is Jill
Jill just sat on hill

While Jeff
While Jeff fell
While Jeff jumped
While Jeff flew

Who is Who?
Is Jeff you?
Are you Jill?
Which is Which?

I'm Happy

Sunday, November 27, 2011

This Feeling

I have no words
Words are expression of meaning
They can only express
What we are capable of knowing

A feeling that cannot be known
Cannot be expressed
Therefore cannot be put in words
But must be felt

So I will feel like I do
Without words to express
Words to explode forth into this world
And spread this feeling

Instead I'll hold it close
and remember it always
And forever look for the words
That describe this feeling

The Voracious Mind

Shackled in a vault of unimaginable creation
Locked tight after years of violence and abuse
You would guess that all these locks
would keep your precious little mind safe, wouldn't you?

Quietly tucked away in a locked box
Surrounded by a thousand other boxes
Where you keep all those other things
Long ago deemed unneeded or wrong

Some are chained up because of the mighty damage they do
Hate and Greed and Jealousy all rattle their cages
But other benign subjects sit cross legged wondering why
Discovery and Passion and Play are just as bound

Contrary to the belief of static stones who live without life
The mind is no object waiting to be used at your leisure
It more closely resembles clinging ivy crossed with fireworks
The most absurd and heartening and satisfying image

All you need to do is give it a little water and some soil
Expose those curious leaves to the sun of the outside world
That lights the fuse which send this beautiful flora
Spinning in every direction and blossoming with a million different flowers

Those exquisite vines do more then merely look attractive
They crack open all of those cages and release every boundary
Pure and sickly thoughts share the same brain
Both kinds feed that mammoth thing that is the mind

To every banker who has sufficiently catalogued
Every thought, experience and feeling in its proper place
I ask you to wonder why you stop freedom from being
It is a way of life more exhilarating then all others

To every would be gardener who can't quite nurture
The water is found in a spring of cool contentment
The soil is located in a place you are familiar with
The light is all around and you just have to punch holes in the ceiling

To every jungle inhabitant who has found release
Don't concern with how the plant grows
Why the flowers only blossom a weeping blue
It is yours and there is no other like it

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Reductio ad Absurdum

I want to rip a hole in the sky
and let all that inky space
pour into our empty places
so that we can unchain ourselves
from the burden of breathing.

I want to light a fire in that void
and let that raging combustion
shoot out among the stars
and nebulas and distants earths
that are just out of our reach.

I want to take all the clouds
and bottle them in an old tin can
so your days will always be clear
and when you want to be shaken
with storms or rain or snow
you can just find a rusty butter knife
and pry to your hearts content.

I want to grow a new world
from seeds of long forgotten thought
found in ancient ruins of the middle class family
that always wanted to take root
but didn't know why or how
to take root in a place
that breaks the bones of happy children
and sets them so they never grow back proper
so they can't ever move without thinking
about a world that fucked them over.

I want to push my body
until the stresses of four thousand days
leaves me older and jaded
and so bitter that no amount of milk
can fix the dark brown color
of the coffee of my life
and I can look back at old friends
filled with pure radiant happiness
that I have arrived at adulthood
and they will never know the joy
of all consuming debt
of luckless loveless marriage
of a life devoted to money
of kids who fail at all expectation
of surprises that ruin every almost good time
of enough alcohol to drown a ship
of wondering how bad death could be
of standing on the bridge
of falling down again and again until it loses all meaning.

Friday, November 25, 2011

Somewhere

Somewhere
The grass grows green
The wind is light
Birds fly free
The world is an invitation
Asking for you

Somewhere
The skies are alive
The days are long
The nights are warm
The stars are bright
Rest is always easy
Dawn is always spectacular

Somewhere
The people are blissful
Their songs are lively
Their celebration welcoming
Their doors are always open
They share what they have
They give what they can
They live for one another

Somewhere

The Tower

A pull more fearsome then gravity
Lives within a single building
Known to all who pass
As a place
Sinister and devouring

The Tower upon the coast
Of a dead nation
It acts as herald to all
Lost souls crossing the sea
Seeking a better home
A new beginning already over

There is no rest to be found
In this decaying place
Those who once lived in peace
Killed all their dreams
Murderer the land
Razed their fellow man

The only sign of their lives
Their twice-cursed legacy
Is a land for the distraught
and a Tower
filled with every lost hope
all the hours of happiness
and each tear of joy

That is why the Tower pulls
Why wretches and those defeated
Come to wander that lonely land
In the hope
In the mad pursuit
Of finding what those people once had

Hope
Happiness
Joy

All
Long
Gone

Locked away in the Tower.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

I'm Not Growing Up

I don't want to be young
I was already young
It was long and confusing
Scary and strange
Weird and unpleasant

I was a child and it wasn't fun.
But at heart
I am a child and it's a fucking blast

I want to dance and so I dance
I play around with words and actions
I do what I want when I want
With the freedom to do it whenever

I drum on objects
I sway to the music on my headphones
I eat food with my hands
I wear formal clothes to informal events
I wear sweatpants whenever I want
When I get bored, I do strange things
I daydream about everything
What could never happen
What has already happened
What I would do if this happened
How I would take over the world with penguins
What if I built a theatre on top of a skyscraper
What if a zombie apocalypse is just around the corner
And then sprint off to meet a friend for tea
And talk about nothing important
Because nothing is important
Because I'm me
A little kid at heart
With a wallet and common sense
and no inhibitions

I don't want to be a child
Thats not half as fun
As being a kid in a candy store
With a months salary.

Simple Love

Sound waves
Snow flakes
Asphalt
Longing

Sunset
Windswept grass
Dirt road
Farewell

Strange light
Midnight
Fire side
Don't hide

Dead trees
Oh please
Two hearts
One part

Take wing
Summer fling
Drink away
Let's play

Over again
Take the plane
Come back
Love attack

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I would rather...

I would rather be stone than flesh
I would rather be dark than light
I would rather be lost than found

I would rather fall than fly
I would rather sink than swim
I would rather lose than win

I would rather choose to fail
I would rather choose my life
I would rather choose

I would rather do anything
I would rather
But I can't

I can't help but fly
I can't help but shine
I can't help but live

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Sleep

The only place I ever want to be
Is safe upon my bed
Resting against a sea of life
Sleeping peacefully

Who needs a world
So brimming with chills and conflicts
When your bed only ever asks
That you warm it up

And it returns the favour
In a majestic way
Keeping you as comfortable as can be
Until the next day

Some people see it as a place
Just to rest their weary heads
But those like me who live for dreams
Know it to be so much more

Inside a bed our minds are free to roam
Into our heads we may go free
To worlds that can never be charted
While safe and warm at home

I cannot wait to return back there
Where sleep can take me off
I try to find my slumbering spot
But the day requires my attention

I'll walk upon this waking land
Until the night grows near
Then I'll go to my native world
And live there forever more.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Enamoured Eternity

Do we die a thousand deaths before we leave this earth?
It's beginning to feel like eternity is commonplace
Ephemeral dreams are slipping from my comprehension
I feel locked knee deep in the sands of time

These mammoth strings of hulking words
They give me reason to endure
Despite how loathsome they are slowly becoming
The words are patiently waiting but I cannot reach them

I'll give myself over to the aching ancient world of statues
Or hide myself away inside a cave to await winters end
I must weather these dark things I wish were not mine
I must rid myself of this sickness so that I may heal

Leave No Stone Unturned

Teach me where to go
Show me how to run
Give me every lesson
Tell me how to live

I seek to be a comet in the sky
Living in stark beauty amid humble night
So far I haven't learned how to glow
But every moment without makes me hope

Teach me to be
Show me why I walk
Give me just a sliver
Tell me every word

I seek to change my humble self
Become something more then mere existence
By accepting every fault and vulnerability
I plan to be myself completely

Teach me silver words
Show me fiery thoughts
Give me living breaths
Tell me precious gems

I seek to run through dreams and imaginations
Where even wild nightmares inspire my soul
To pick up speed and view this shimmering world
Like the smashing of a stain glass window

Teach me hope
Show me life
Give me reason
Tell me why

I seek to light a spark appear within your head
Which can grow into an unformed thought
that shoots into the inky void that awaits it
and expands, consumes, and possesses your entire mind.

Teach me how
Show me what you want
Give me a moment
Tell me to start

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Touch

Touch
Like lace across spiderwebs
Like drifting snow on glass
Like a whisper told to black velvet

Touch
Like snapping a pencil
Like slamming a heavy oak door
Like a rock through thin ice

Touch
Like water on a raging fire
Like warm clothes during winter
Like a giant hairy hug

Touch
Like oil smeared thickly
Like needles creeping up a spine
Like a knife through canvas

Touch
Like a midnight lover
Like a enormous defender
Like a hunter and a predator

Friday, November 18, 2011

Human Divinity

What is it
that makes people leap into the dark
that makes heros out of farmers
What changes within a person
to cause bravery to rise
to cause an unstoppable force

How can it be
that this resolute cry
this passion of the courageous
Resides within a man

Such acts are reserved for the gods
as we mortals are told
But the hint of truth
that hides inside the fairy tale
is that even though
Gods created us

We created Gods
and like a candle and flickering shadows
We are bound inexplicably
to be part of the other

So though gods act boldly
and reach into the stars
to turn and twist the strands of fate
they falter at love
they wonder at guilt
They smash a world with rain
without a hint of remorse

While we the humble human
who toss and turn
in a sea of overwhelming emotion
barely staying afloat in the raging torrent
Sometimes we reach towards the heavens
and make the gods tremble at our actions
Sometimes we choose our fate
Sometimes we rival the creators.

Blue Eyes

Those blue eyes still haunt me
Wherever I can possibly go
From my dearest friends
and complete strangers

They pierce my unneeded shell
and tear away my doubts
With flashes of clear understanding
I become alive and in heaven at once.

But the eyes never stay long
The stranger walks past
The friends turn away
and lose that look forever

I know those eyes are waiting for me
Somewhere in this wide world
And on the day I give up entirely
They'll be the ones that ask,

"What's wrong?"

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Freedom's Fall and Subsequent Revival.

I lay at the bottom of the cliff
Having jumped just moments before
This flight that so possessed my dreams
Became nothing more then a free fall

The grand adventure plotted in my mind
Was merely screaming hell
With the ground all too near
and all too frighteningly real

But as I touched the unforgiving earth
My whole self turned into water clear
And I burst into the finest mist
Suspended above the ground

Though the fall had killed who I was
It changed me into who I am
I am no longer on a cliff
I am no longer bound to fall

I am blessed with the freedom
Of a tourist in a far off place
No direction is restricted
Free to follow fortunes wind

I lay at the bottom of the cliff
My body devoid of all life
But my spirit drifts towards the sea
Carried by the tropical breeze

Where I will land is up to fate
For fate favours the bold
Who is more bold then he
With a soul unconquerable

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Please let me leave

I plan to leave
Goodbye cruel world
No.... actually
Goodbye kind world
Thank you
For the chance
To chase a star
That star has fallen
For the time being
That star will arise
But till that time
Leave it dead
and Leave me

Goodbye kind world

Scholarly Lessons

A trickster once learned
How to best rob
Good wealthy men
Of all that they own

This trickster with a grin
Put a hat upon his head
It was an odd sort of cap
Looking completely outrageous

He then went across the land
Proclaiming brassly, "HO,
I am a distant scholar man
Come learn from me"

Those who saw this trickster
With strange hat upon his head
Thought that surely this man
Must know a thing or two

But the trickster told them
"Halt, for I am poor,
A scholar cannot teach
Without a meal in his belly"

The trickster was fed and watered
to his hearts desire
But as soon as he was finished
There was more that he hungered for

"A scholar cannot teach upon the dirt"
He said between devouring meals
"I need a proper castle
To illustrate my teachings"

The trickster gained a beautiful hold
But he was not satisfied
This trickster found another ploy
to help him reach his quarry

He showed the people
His tattered old hat
And said, quite lamely, to the people
"I need some money for that"

So every time they walked the hearth
Of the tricksters castle
They paid him one golden coin
For the pleasure of his company

This went on for many years
With the trickster saying no
He could not teach
"Not in these conditions"

Until this thief
This vagabond
This man of ill moral
Had plundered half the earth

And then this plunderer
Had the nerve
To put his head upon his bed
And promptly lay down and die

He left with a lifetime of gold
All buried in the walls
And every piece was hidden away
Gone too far to find

This scholar said he knew the truth
and that was indeed was right
For you can tell any lie
and people will think it's true.

Pay your gold
and waste your life
Be the tricksters guest
Just remember this

Better be a heedless fool
Living his own way
Then pay to waste your life away
and die a heedless fool anyway.

Monday, November 14, 2011

This Silent Curse.

My lovers song is all but done
My rebels tune has been played
My compliant march is dwindling
My wild drums now fade

The music of my soul
Once loud as a rainstorm
Now grows as silent
As a winters night

Made bold by hope
It has fallen prey to fear
Now I fear to play again
For fear of fear itself

No chord can be struck
To bring life back to me again
Is a quiet life my sentence
For a crime I thought was love

To you with sweet sounds
Rolling easily from your happy throat
To you with soft harmonies
That seem undying

Ignore my warnings
I pray you will
For if you hold dear to what you have
You will lose the joy all about

The time will come
When strings will break
Wood will crack
and voices will rasp away to nothing

But till you live
in this soundless solitude
Pay no heed to any warning
Live without any care

The Reason

Don't scuttle the ship
unless its meant to sink

Don't wave the white flag
unless you need to surrender

Don't run away to join the circus
unless you've always wanted that

Don't jump off the roof
unless you want to fly

Don't walk into the ocean
unless you want to drown

Don't dig your own grave
unless you want to be buried

Saturday, November 12, 2011

From a Land Beyond Dreams.

Listen to the call
That echo, that cry
Pricks your skin
with violet sparks
of awakening fears.
The great realization
that you are nothing
but a living creature
Constructed with death
as an inevitability.

That call rings
across oceans
past mountains
through forests
and comes from a place
further then all footsteps.
It comes from the land
beyond your waking eyes
where dreams grow strange
and truth dances with lies.

From this land
a call is given out
to show you the way home.

It comes
when you forget yourself
and you live completely.
Not thinking of tomorrow
yesterday or almost.
When you cease to be
a thinking mind
and become as you once were.
A living creature
connected with the land
and using every sense.

The call
of primal fear
and wild truth
comes for all.
We have learned to hide
from this beastly honour.
But when we face our fears
and run towards the risk
we become more
then just a thinking mind.

We become living creatures
with life and death
held in each hand
with fear and certainty
tied together in our breast.

We become alive.

Listen to the call
The call that every
living creature hears.
The call is coming
from a land you've never walked.
The call is coming
to take you away.

Follow the call.

Love

A word was written on a page
That word was very small
The letters were a messy scrawl
The page was a little scrap

That word became a sentence
Spoken very plain
Consisting of a simple point
Just an honest claim

From sentence to a paragraph
With slightly larger frame
But no flowery words were wrote
The purpose remained the same

Paragraphs multiplied into a book
Bound like every other one
But such a book had never been
Like a candle to the sun

This book grew into a thought
That occupied every soul
And tormented like a demon
With beauty pure and whole

The thought became an argument
Pursued on every tongue
As wise old men discussed patiently
Action was taken by the young

Arguments blossomed into fights
That took a fearsome turn
Proponents fought with every ounce
And every blow caused them to burn

Fights developed into a battle
One that nobody had seen before
Where no lives were at risk
But the passions of forevermore

Battles became a war
In every house across the world
Where every soul had to choose
Why they lived upon this earth

The war turned into a crusade
As hearts beat as one
Across the glowing horizon
Their hope became a beacon

That mighty crusade simmered to a revolution
No longer bent on fighting
But turned inwards to be
The source of a new enlightening

The revolution slowed to a utopia
Where all hearts lay at rest
No conflict shook the quite place
No more hypothesis to test

That utopia gave way to contentment
A quiet way to live
As the day-to-day business came
With no alternative

But contentment changed to confidence
When every heart learned
That though a conflict had occurred
The right to live happily had been earned

This transformation
This war in every heart
Came into being by word
From the very start

Perhaps it seems obvious
To those who feel its pull
That this word could change the world
Make an empty man full

So gently grip it in your hand
Or search across the sea
Find the place in which it hides
And make it come to be

Friday, November 11, 2011

The Promise

As the rain falls outside your window
As the snow drifts upon the hills
As the hills turn to green
As the sun shines into your room

I have not forgotten
Our room
Our hills
Our window

As the halls fall silent
As the shadows drift between the doors
As the sunset turns to twilight
As the candles shine alone

I have not forgotten
Our halls
Our sunsets
Our candles

As the silence hangs heavy
As the silk clings wet to your body
As the wind blows through your window
As the mood turns black

I have not forgotten
Our silence
Our wind
Our mood

As the ground beckons urgently
As the noose slithers upon your skin
As the knife glistens like glass
As the world breathes a sigh

I have not forgotten
Our noose
Our knife
Our world

As the stone heart cracks
As the iron resolve rusts
As the instrument is dropped
As the promise is screamed

I have not forgotten
Our heart
Our instrument
Our promise

As the wretchedness is remembered
As the promise is again broken
As the sun rises on another day
As the night passes without your death

I have not forgotten
Our wretchedness
Our promise
And my death

I
Want
You
Dead

You
Promised
You
Would

Join
Me
In
The End

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Once upon a bird's wing

Once upon a time
The tale began
It was told to little children
Who lacked the wisdom to know why

Once upon a time
The story went
A place existed in the sky
Beyond any human arm

Once upon a time
Birds flew to this mystic place
And made a home there
Within the distant and perfect sky

Once upon a time
It was a garden that grew
A paradise upon the clouds
A refuge for the innocent birds

Once upon a time
They flew away from the world
They met in that spiritual garden
To rest from the madness below

Once upon a time
was long ago

Now in this time
The garden is covered in smoke
The wondrous trees now bear strange fruit
The birds do not go there anymore

Now in this time
Pure white clouds and warm yellow sunbeams
Have changed to
Orange sunset sky and fading dusk hues

Now in this time
A paradise has been destroyed
The birds all agree
That this world has struck with misery

Now in this time
The madness doesn't stay below
It reaches up into the sky
To twist the quiet clouds

Now in this time
Paradise is a word without meaning
For the world has discovered
Morality is just another word

Now in this time
Perfection can't exist
Anymore then damnation could
Reality is the terrifying tale now told

Now in this time
This garden in the sky
Is now a home for all the wayward birds
Who lose their path to perfection

Now in this time
The birds still fly to find it
The birds are still flying
The birds will always be flying

Now in this time
The children are no wiser
With the fable told
No more prepared to fly

Now in this time
Once upon a time
Is just a time
Lost in time

Brian's Sickness

Depression is the sweetest form
of gentle lilting kisses upon your hand
Darling and Savage
Lovely and Shattering
The most passive wave
of self-destructive rage

It takes the quiet day
It grabs the soft silence
and rends it to pieces
Like a kitten and a couch
Like a drunkard and a life

Love only feeds the fear of being too much
Hate only points in one direction; inward
Beauty can't exist
Contentment long forgotten
Depression consumes them all

Yet among the broken landscape
of the once healthy being that was
There blossoms a bitter bloom
Upon every pedal is etched the words
"I don't care"

Which in its own perverted way
Is more wonderful then any happiness
The freedom to say, "I'm sad: Fuck off"
and mean every letter.
The freedom of the broken self

If only this dark monster
This hunter of inquisitive souls
Would give the gift of a teacher
And stay locked up within the class room
Like all good instructors

But this creature cannot be contained
Though it teaches something wonderful
It plagues every step and poisons every thought
Leaving whoever might have learned a single word
Too paralyzed to even think

Depress the world
And let every single being
Learn this most brutal lesson
Because only this dark fire
can purge our sickly heads.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Nothing

Nothing worth saying
So I wont say anything

Seems simple right?
Why isn't it

Because anything is needed
To fight the silence

Something is better then nothing
Even when something is nothing

So, go on world
Continue to talk

Say nothing and mean nothing
Think nothing and be nothing

I choose silence
Dignified anonymity

After all
I have nothing to say

The one case in which
nothing is respected

Nothing worth saying
So nothing will be said.

And all the world shall hear
Nothing

And from nothing
Anything can grow

So before you speak nothing
Take a moment

Realize that saying nothing
Is far more powerful

Then speaking nothing

For us.

Breathe
Breathe yourself to death
Breathe yourself to shame
Breathe till you goddamn explode

Move
Move yourself to pain
Move yourself to agony
Move till you fucking break

Listen and lie
Nod and smile
Pretend to understand
The truth of messed up profession

Yet anyone
upon this earth
would happily quit
then face this shit

We of the
Actors creed
are truly sick
to take all this

C'est la vie
Such is crap
Take a drink
and move on

Love exists in the purity
found though understanding
We who seek to understand the human race
will be the ones who find pure love

So fuck that shit
Keep going on
Lets do this till
We cannot even stand

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

I Like You

Hold me close
Like no one ever had before

Shove me away
Like no one dared to before

Hate me passionately
Like I wish some would

Love me without reason
Like you have always wanted to

Deny me this request
Like the kind of friend I've never had

Accept every offer
Like the servant I didn't know you were

Let us run beyond the sun and moon
Like the wandering gods we truly are.

One and the same, you and me
Like mirrors facing each other

Tomorrow we will hide in another's embrace
Like we never looked upon one another

Today we will sigh in plain sight
Like lovers who never had a chance

Yesterday we will live forever
Like a picture framed timelessly

Always we will be bound
Like two halves, perfect and opposite

Please wake me up

I think I've died or fallen asleep
But of which I am not sure
Death is surely just as sweet
As a warm comforting bed.

But in that sleep of death
I have so often heard
That no dreams may come my way
Which is what perplexes me

For while I slumber or pass away
My world has been invaded
Shadowy figures claw at my heart
While all the light fades into black

Like any rational thinker
Which I occasionally am
I know that it be true
All dreams pass in time

But as I wander this barren plain
I find no end in sight
No safety from the darkened sky
No respite from this living dream

The thought drops into my heart
and leadens my airy soul
Surely all fantasies come to end
But what if this one never does?

Death reigns far more permanently
Though is more merciful in it's ruling
Somehow then, Am I the exception
To it's peaceful monarchy

So I lie in my bed
and question even life
Do I live inside my mind
or have I died without?

These queries are like water drops
to a vast enormous sea
Why then do I expect the world
to bless an answer upon me?

Because hope is all we have
Awakened or asleep
Alive or dead means nothing at all
Hope is the only thing that runs deep.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Just a Little Guy

I am just a little gnat
Living in the tall grasses

I am just a little rat
Scurrying in the big ship

I am just a little guy
Walking in giant shoes

All those mammoth people
Bumble around
Making a big deal
About everything they do

So it means so much more
When those huge people
Topple to the ground
and take down massive civilizations

Where am I
midst this calamity?

I'm just a little dot on the map
Taking in the melodrama

I'm just a little set of eyes
Watching in amusement

I'm just a little guy
Living in this big world

When the dust settles
Lines are drawn
People are subdued
People are emboldened

And everything keeps going
Just the same as before
Different name on top
Different name on bottom

Where am I
during this dynasty shift?

I'm just a little country
Existing between borders

I'm just a little flag
Waving in the storm

I'm just a little guy
Rolling in the spoils

Why does everyone want fame
Glory and Greatness
They are just asking
To be kicked in the teeth

If you want attention
You'll get it plain and clear
A punch in the face
From every available fist

And you wonder why
I like being a little guy

Leave the heavens to the angels
Leave the hells to the demons
Leave the grandeur to the grand
Leave the glory to the glorious

I'd rather be
Just a little ol' me.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Glacial Lover's Requiem

Shall our love remain unspoken
Will the dam remain unbroken
Shall our love remain evergreen
Locked in winters reverie

Shall we freeze together still
Pretending the end would never be
Shall we forgo all thoughts of spring
Trapped in icy majesty

Shall our hope always bloom
Can our interest always dwell
Shall our bond be set in stone
Joined in snowy prison cell

Shall this love become a curse
Is this life too much to bear
Shall this season be our doom
Frozen till the bitter end

A Boy Who Became A Wolf

Once there was a child
Abandoned by his family
Given over to the autumn wood
for the wild to take its toll

But the indecipherable stars
and the mysterious moon
had granted mercy from on high
and sent saviours to the lost boy

In the darkest night of despair
Companions raced out of the shadows
The boy no longer wandered alone
He now had a pack

He ran with his brothers
Fought with his pack
Hunted the swift deer
and followed the lonely moon

So the boy learned rules
more ancient than civilization
more true than modern justice
He learned the laws of nature

That death is quick and never fair
Speed and stealth will triumph brute strength
Survival is all that truly matters
Life can only exist with the death of others

The last lesson was learned
At the greatest of costs
When winter came across the boy
his skin could not handle the frigid weather

So the oldest wolf
A beast of the highest nobility
Offered his beaten hide
to keep the young pup alive

The boy survived that season
though he wondered why
Why one should die in favour of another
Why does one life not equal another?

But those are the old adages
belong behind the walls of men
The old perish while the young grow
Wasting that kind sacrifice would help no one

So the boy learned
with more haste
with more brutality
than we of safe cities could dream

Until the day
A trap mangled the young man
Caught him fast by the leg
Stopped him cold in the summer

Though his brothers tried
he was stuck in those metal jaws
For the sake of his pack
The young man told them to leave

Days passed sparingly
before a man arrived
Well accustom to the wild freedom
and to cultured streets

The man released the wolf-boy
and sought to bring him back
To show him the mercy of rooms
The kindness of humankind

But when the boy awoke upon a bed
He did not see kindness
He did not see mercy
A wolf only knows freedom or captivity

Into the streets the wolf ran
His countenance savage and bloody
The townsfolk ran in fear
Except for one

The trapper who showed the boy love
his hand of love now a fist
brought the rifle from his hip
brought his aim to the wolf

The last law of life
was etched into the breast of this proud beast
While Nature's being is sweet and unsettling
Humans will always wear many evil faces

This lesson pierced the heart of the wolf
As did the bullet from the gun
But despite the love of the moon
The wolf, child, boy, and man, died.

While the love of the moon
could not save her beloved son
The wrath of night
saw that justice was done

From that day forth
the trapper never slept
His dreams invaded by hunting figures
His nights filled with mournful howls

And so a boy became a wolf
So a wolf was killed with kindness
So kindness killed
So death heralded new life

Because from the shell
of the wolf's broken body
A new breed of men sprung
Those who longed to touch the moon

Werewolves
No monsters
But men
But wolves

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Conflagration

Inside my quiet heart
I never thought it true
The gentle embers there within
had ever longed to burn

But every inch of battlefield
has piled on the fuel
Like branches of brittle pine
Like shattered bones of muddy war

My modest coals at first denied
The inferno waiting to burst
Smouldering under too much wood
Whispering desperate calls of smoke

But bitter wind and hopeless hell
encouraged thoughtless rage
which lifted into shining hope
and grows to righteous chivalry

And now these flames of passion
Consume my flesh and bone
I do not feel such mortal pain
Heaven in my heart and soul

So when I am ash
Floating on the breeze
I will coat the dry world
and light it all aflame

Friday, November 4, 2011

Theatrical Haikus

I love you dearly
When you walk upon the stage
In your skin tight suit

Lights are all above
Warmer then a lover's hug
Truer then the sun

We who walk the stage
Make only one sacred vow
Truth in a false world

Hold me, Romeo
Oh, kiss me please, Juliet
Dramatic Romance

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Unfinished

I'm on a ship.

I'm on a ship
and I have decided to dive into the water

I have dived into the water
and I'm sinking through turquoise bliss

I have sunk through turquoise bliss
and met a thousand colourful fish

I have met a thousand colourful fish
and everyone of them sings of love

I have heard the song of love from all about
and somehow I'm still sinking

I have continued to sink
and the water is getting darker

The water has turned to midnight ink
and I have forgotten my journey there

I have forgotten my reason to dive
and I'm lost in the marine twilight

I am lost at the bottom of the sea
and I am afraid

I have grown afraid the water
and I am scared of the unknown

I am afraid of what I don't know
and I'm lost at the bottom of the sea

I'm lost at the bottom of the sea
and then I find something

I find something beneath my feet
and it is the ocean floor

I have found the ocean floor
and I'm no longer lost

I am no longer lost
and I don't know where I am

I don't know where I am
and I'm not afraid of that.

I'm not afraid of being lost on the ocean floor
and then the ground shifts

I'm afraid of the ground shifting
and I don't know what to do

I don't know what to do
and I want to stay where I am now comfortable

I want to stay right where I am
and I keep sinking into the mud

I sink into the mud
and I become part of the sea floor

I become part of the sea floor
and I'm afraid of the endless earth

I am afraid of the endless earth
and I know why

I know why I'm afraid of the endless earth
and I don't want to be.

I don't want to be afraid of the earth
and suddenly I'm not

I'm not afraid of the ground around me
and again I find peace

Again, I find peace
and again I start to sink

I sink through this comforting and unfamiliar mud
and I feel something peculiar

I feel something strange
and I feel it on my foot

I feel a sensation on my foot
and it feels like fire

I feel fire on my foot
and soon I feel it as well

I am on fire
and all around me is flames

I am surrounded by flames
and I can see a river in the distance

I can see a sliver of relief in the distance
and I sprint towards it

I run wildly towards the river
and I arrive through the flames

I arrive at the river in the distance
and I find it is no ordinary river

I find this river is not ordinary
and I am frightened

I am frightened by the river
and I don't know why

I don't know why the river frightens me
and then I see the boat

I see the boat
and I see the captain

I see the captain
and I recognize him as Death

I recognize the captain as Death
and he recognizes me as I

Death recognizes me
and welcomes me aboard

I am welcomed aboard the vessel
and I look down upon the river

I look down into the river
and I see it is endlessly deep

I see the river is endlessly deep
and I make a decision

I'm on a ship

I'm on a ship
and I have decided to...

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

I don't much care anymore.



The Rebellion of Words.

Pretentious strings of redundant disgusting words
Can't we just do away with them?

Awful conglomerations of vowels, consonants, and breath
Spewing grossly from our mouths.

Filled with vile and unintelligible innuendoes and lies
Impossible to find their true intentions

Pieces of horrible
hideous
grotesque
putrid
decaying
decrepit
unholy
stupid
unpleasant
unneeded
unwanted

fucking

shitty

Words.

(Fuck is the only true word anymore.
It displays reality in an explosion of emotion.)

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

My State

I want to write

To find my purpose within the sweet confines of this page
To share the experience of one soul with the entirety of the world
To render even the smallest acting in loving grandeur
To discover what living is on the bloodless lifeless page

Was this what I was meant to be?
Was my fate doomed from my first breath?
Am I wandering when I should be devout?
Am I tortured when I should be free?

The curse I seem to have upon my head
is the love of passionate and unwavering destiny
I only want the unbroken path to tread upon my feet
and send me off into the horizon with all expediency

But this path that I have chosen as my own
has left me tired, battered by the unceasing sun
Wanting to walk the path until I die
But wondering why I need to die to walk it.

To beat myself until I feel the whips and scorn of success
To run myself until I find happiness in conclusion
To worry myself until I cease to question every thought
To hate myself until I love the constant pain within my heart

I want to write